6. Weekend Adventures 00

Yesterday - I was in a very negative and bad headspace.
I felt very lonely and alone.

I was craving a connection toooo much - but I couldn't talk to anyone.
Partly because no one was available and also if someone was available - I didn't wanna ruin their mood with my negativity.

Wanted to go out to a café for a change of scenery but then mom dad said no. Mom started emotionally blackmailing me to spend time with her.

Then she gave me false hope that we'll talk once you take a shower - (I didn't want to as I was being lethargic)

Somehow I dragged myself out and got it done but then - she said jo karna hai kar - I said you also come with me. We can spend time together. She's like no and that just sent me. I was angry. Then she said jo karna hai kar - but that's like you know what that means...

So I just forced myself to sleep.

And slept well actually.

Then I woke up at like 4:30 - 5:30 AM and got ready for Satsang - Sunday mornings are for Satsang.
I had a lovely batata poha and a nice kadak cup of chai made by maa.
Then left for satsang.

After satsang - went to a nice café, had a lovely cup of hot chocolate and marshmallows. Somehow that fixes everything in life?

Then I had a Bagel with Guac. Fun fact: A generous drizzle of tabasco over guac - elevates its flavor profile by 2-3x. Do try it next time and drop me a DM if you love it!

Then I booked a cab for mom to come back from home - she had left for home after satsang.

We went to Benne and had amazing Bangalore style Dose, ghee pudi thatte idly, indu icecream - the filter coffee one and then downed a nice filter coffee. Clicked cute pictures with maa.

After that - I was walking towards the café again but saw Bata on the way - went looking for Trekking shoes. Saw a decent pair - but not gonna go with it, will hold off for sometime, see more options and then purchase.
Then I left bata, on the way saw a Lenskart showroom - I wanted to get shades for myself, Saw one me and maa both REALLY loved but their starting range was Rs. 2000 - so quietly just walked out cause no way I am spending 2k over kala-chasma (maybe not yet)

Too some dashing pictures of me, myself and I though.

Then continued towards the café and had another coffee - this one was citrus espresso tonic.

Then sent maa back home in a cab and I went all the way from Charni road to Borivali - just to catch up with a friend to another café.
There I had a Vietnamese Cold Brew and had REALLY good Loaded Nachos.
After that, I went out for a walk with him and talked my heart out. I felt really good, felt a connection. A goooood break from what I was going through yesterday.

Then I came back home feeling very content with life and happy and with a small jolt of motivation to do better. I'm gonna try and fix my eating habits - yet again. (attempt number 234238472432)

All of this - just makes me feel like - sometimes you might not be able to fix your mental health right-away. You have to learn to sit with yourself and your thoughts. And then put in efforts to make changes to your environment. Time and friends and a change of atmosphere heals. And obviously - FOOOOOOD.